someone please abet me.......?

you have an uptake disorder, Gain Help Now. tell your parents how you feel even if you are not close (or send them a note, i find it's a group easier) talk to a doctor, and report to a clinic
you sound very valiant and smart to speak something, even if it's on the internet to full strangers. again CHECK IN to a clinic! near a few work you can beat this

Goodish

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